Me at my BEST
In my heart is where I’m at my very best.
Although it has been diluted by over-use, I don’t use the word “best” lightly. In this case, “best” is not about competency or even skill. This “best” is where my Higher Self, body, and mind merge - with the mind is in service to the Self and the body.
In his book “Aleph”, Paulo Coelho describes this point of merging as a kind of door to the mystical. He calls it the “Aleph” which is the first letter in the Hebrew alphabet. It is the alpha point of perpetual new beginnings.
A recent entry from my journal about this point
There is a point where individuality and Oneness meet;
Where you are you, I am me and we are we.
Where angel and animal sing in harmony;
Where brush, paint, and canvas become art.
Where we see the mosaic beauty of it all.
Where light touches darkness and is not afraid.
I am moving from a mind-based man (where my identity is “smart”) to a heart-based man (where my identity is “kind”). And as it is with any evolution of identity, it is painful as fuck - especially for those that I love the most.
I’m so used to getting my confidence from my mind. I’m smart, well-read, with lots of life experience. I have an impressive ability to recall the right quote, the right book, the right statistic at any given moment. I am also a master of language, a deft storyteller, and I can relate to almost anyone. These skills have served me well and I’m certain I will carry them with me.
But they are of little value to the heart.